I can't stand the hold some people have over others. It's pathetic. Atleast i know i stick to my guns regardless of what anyone, especially my friends think. I'm sick of being nice to people who clearly don't deserve it from me. No, i'm more sick of other people playing nice, for fuck's sake, grow some balls. Who cares if it lowers your friend count on facebook, i'm glad i don't waste my time on wankers, it just gives me more time to focus on the people that actually mean the world to me. Life is too short to waste it making an effort with people who genuinely don't give a shit. How can you be so blind? Your ignorance frustrates me.

On another note, i had a surprise birthday party thrown for me yesterday. It was lovely, and i'm so grateful to everyone who made the effort to make it special. I got to see almost everyone i care about, and didn't have to see the people i don't give a shit about, which made it one of the greatest gatherings we've had so far in my opinion. I had so much fun, got loads of hugs and saw people i didn't expect. It was pretty much the best day i've had in the longest time. Those people -are- worth it. The only thing that would have made the day better was if my party wasn't used as a gossip ground for the the person i dislike most. Seriously, why the need to mention her at my own birthday party? I didn't need to think about that on a day i was supposed to be happy and having fun. Luckily there were way more awesome people to cheer me up and make me quite happy. Thankyou.
I was also surprised at how well they knew me...Khiara made cupcakes in my favourite colours...they had Disney Princess/Fairy theme...They had twirls - my favourite chocolate bar...Jemma made sure a certain someone wasn't invited (though i'm honestly not sure how anyone could be mistaken into thinking she would be wanted there in any circumstance)...How ridiculously thoughtful! All in all, i can't believe what a great day it was. Especially super special when Jesse showed up, and then Boo. Two of the loveliest people i didn't expect to see at all, but can't imagine having a great day without. I still can't believe how thoughtful everyone is...i never had expected anything like that, i thought i was going out for a quiet coffee XD

Okay..that just put me back in a good mood.

Still don't feel like myself though. When was the last time i did?